Friday, September 28, 2012

Lost in transit

As hard as I tried it not to effect me the truth is that the scales going up by 4kgs did. So much so that I didn't follow the diet this week. I did make some of the meals but i feel like what ever.
I want to get back on track for next week. I find it hard to digest the fact that I followed the program ( and I don't blame the program) and I lost weight, i was so stocked to see the scales go down. My inner princess was jumping for joy. To see the next week my cloths felt tight and the weight was back on.
Does this have something to do with the fact I have PCOS? Maybe. but Maybe not!

I went to the doctors, they checked everything and that looks fine. Got some troubles with my left shoulder but that's a different story all together.

Have anyone any idea whats going on, and how do you handle a fail, how do you become positive again?

Thanks for reading

Monday, September 17, 2012

Mind Games

I find it rather interesting that week to week, even just a few days a part how my mind set can change shift do a 360 and then even tilt on its axes.

Seriously, will we ba challenged with something new every day? 
I promised myself that I would get everything on the shopping list this week to make life easier then last. I brought my meats from the market Friday afternoon then took them home and went to where I get my groceries from and when I got there I realised that I left the food list at home in the bag that had the meats in them.. So that went out the window.
Then yesterday I went to the local supermarket, even though it was going to be more expensive I wanted to have all the items I needed. There was many items I could not find. I find this very fustrating. I'm not sure with the supermarket or the person writing our shopping list.
I only live 15ks from the CBD.. surely if these shops don't have the items I need some one that lives rural wont be able to find them... Right??

Any way so I got the items I needed and headed home to eat left over BBQ from Saturday nights treat meal.. Why??? Who knows why.. Had my game face stuck in my butt.

To top if off I didn't do SSS.. My leg has been sore from Thursdays killer session. I don't mean like muscle sore get over it.. I mean it feel like I ripped my calf off the bone.. I'll try a light work out tonight and see how it feels tomorrow.

So over all as you can probably tell, I'm annoyed at myself this at the moment. Didn't get enough training in, ate more calories then my mind cares to register and I'm tired!

I know I gotta suck it up, deal with it and move forward...but felt like giving my 3 years old self a chance to voice its self.

How are you feeling going into week 4?


Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Today's thoughts

Hey, weight in Wednesday was awesome for me. Loved loved and loved to see the scales drop. So much so that after I finished work I just wanted to go home and have a nanna nap as I'm feeling exhausted this week but I put my runners on and head straight for the gym before my mind could start playing games. I went hard and long for 30 minutes on03 9092 6540 the treadmill and speeds and incline that I havent done yet and then did 30 minute  on the bike making sure I hit over  11ks and  work at level 4- 6. Boy did that work out hurt. 3 weeks ago I couldnt do more then 15 minutes on the treadmill and now that just a warm up. So proud of me but what keeps me pushing through is seeing the scales drop. You see I have tried so many diets and programs even including this one before and some kind of results was almost impossible and  by week 3 I would have hit plato and would not budge.
I write this to share my excitement but I am still humble in my actions as I know how how hard this is and how easy it is to fall off the wagon. Saying that the inner  voice inside me is acting like a little child you has just lost their first tooth.
So how are you going with your challenge and challenges. Have you learned something's about urself? I would love to hear all about you.
Till next time...
P.s I thought I smashed my workout today but clearly it smashed me!!!

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

YOU deserve it and so do I

The Sun is shinning and the weather is fine. Perfect to leave work go home get a great book ( what can I read next? Did the 50 shades and Bared to you. Now?) and chill out on a blanket in the back yard in the sun sinking deep into the lives of the people in the books.. Divine :) lol.

Well I'm quick to snap myself out of that day dream and remind myself that I have just eaten my lunch cos I am starving and I am at work and will be for some time. After that I will go get changed and go to the gym and when that is done go past the supermarket and get the rest of the ingredients I couldn't find on the weekend. Cook up dinner, eat clean up and chill out on the couch and watch some mindless TV.

So it does sounds so very boring but I am just doing as Miss M asked, just do and don't think go into Robot mode. I am feeling pretty good that so far I have changed a few habits. Oh I'm not in clear waters yet.. The old ones are still banging and screaming on the glass door,"let me out to play and spiral down your life". But I look away and just get on with it. I say "ït" because I don't like to refer to it as a "task", or "Job" cos then it makes it harder for myself.

I think this 12wbt has really tough me some valuable lessons about myself and like I feel enough of my life is a task, or job that I can't use that name for my training or organise my food or shopping. Silly don't you think? But it's what needs to be done so I'm doing it.

Tomorrow is weigh in day and I almost don't want to see. I pray that it has dropped... SOMETHING, ANYTHING. just for the mind games aspect... Either way. I'll make a promise from now that next weigh in week there will be huge results... I REALLY WANT THIS BAD.

You know like that taste of cake? You take a bite and your think it's divine and it makes you want more? Well my tummy is starting to look smaller and I can feel my legs looking in shape, its making me want more.. I want to feel fit and fabulous.

Common ladies and gents YOU deserve it and so do I


Monday, September 10, 2012

working my ass off

Day 1 week 3 and i have found my fitness to increase by far and I work harder and faster and further.. I really am working my ass off.
But I am also finding the the food is starting to increase also. My excuses for this weekend is that it was my husbands birthday on Friday. We had guest Friday, saturday night and Sunday day and night. Gee am I tired today? It's monday and I have the amazing lasagne in the oven, my work out is done and I can't wait to watch BBrother and Xfactor tonight and chill out and sleep straight after that.

I now totally understand why Miss M tells us to get to bed early. It makes a world of difference in ever aspect of your life. So fustrating when visiters come on a sunday and stay till mdnight. Like ok you might not be working tomorrow but we are... Clearly carefactor is zero. I really should have said I was going to bed, but then I would have felt sorry for my husband whom has been working day and night for 3 weeks straight and when he isnt called out he is dealing with guest.

Got to run dinner is ready

Monday, September 3, 2012


Ok so it's Monday and I do not like this day of the week lol.

So yesterday being fathers day I knew there would be lots of awesome food flying around so I made extra chicken parma on a massive plate with the spinach and tomato around just the recipe. I though if I take enough as a platter then others can eat and I can eat too.. But what happens when my inner animal sees meat on the BBQ calling my name? All these amazing foods also calling my name? And even a scone?

It wasn't looking good for me. I did eat some of the chicken I made but also 2 chops, some potato's ( i didn't have them at lunch cos i knew) and salad and a scone.. That for sure has blown any chance of weight loss for this Wednesday. My inner goddess will be crying knowing all the hard work of eating clean and training hard has gone out the window when she sees the scales come Wednesday morning.

This normally would be a time I normally would start to rethink if I can actually do this, already in 1 week my first red flag day and I failed.. BUT What I have decided to do is have a different mind set. Well I guess I was silly in the past. This is life and a lifestyle, if I don't make myself feel so so bad then I won't get off the wagon so quick. Yes, I did have a slip up and it isn't right but it is ok.

So ( deep breath in  and exhale ) time to be kind to myself and you should be kind to your self too.

Looking forward to this week ahead. Red flag day on Friday as it is my husbands bday. I'm thinking we should celebrate and go out on Saturday so it works well with my free meal. But if for some reason Friday is the day I will swap it with Sat and have a left over frozen meal on Sat.

I'm so happy winter is over :)

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Day 5 weight loss

Ok, so just a quick blog, as people are busy but people that exercise and follow an eating plan are really busy people... (As Michelle says)

So far going great, feeling amazing. Thought the pumpkin soup took a lot of time for a week day and I didnt have time to train so yesterday made up for it.

I have had many things go wrong in my life this week but I have not let it bum me out of this. I really really want to do this.. DO IT FOR ME :)

I hope you are also doing IT FOR YOU..

Have a good day all.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Exercise does get EASIER

Hi guys,

I had last night a life changing moment for me. I have been a fit and healthy girl, love sports and exercise for as long as I can remember. About 2 years ago or maybe less something came over me and exercise was DREADFULL, Hated doing it and it was hard and felt like time never passed and just regreted having to do it.

Well in the last 2 weeks I have been forcing myself to just to it, as Mish would say JFDI and last night while I was doing my cardio I thought to myself, really.. seriously is it that bad to exercise for an hour a day? To get results? To feel amazing? To be healthy? To be proud of myself?
When I looked at it like that and realised that it is just that simple, no tricks, no potions, no magic just a simple 1 hour a day devoted to exercise. hahahahah WOW.. and I some how put this monster in my head and it was all in my head.

So now I feel freed and can't wait to do my 1 hour tonight :)

Friday, August 17, 2012

Organise and Diarise Scary

How about I don't even know how to start this blog. Good beginning ha?
No seriously I look at this task Organise and Diarise and I feel paralysed.

So my issue with this is that am i going to train in the morning or evenings? and my husband wants to train with me too and he is on call some weeks which means his evening will be uncertain and the mornings.. I honestly believe that I can not stick to a morning program.

I mean sure 1,2 or 3 weeks but then after that I will go back to not being able to go in the mornings and to tell you the truth I enjoy the afternoon training more.

So I'm thinking that some days will be morning and some will be evening.. I am planning on doing the training. So where do I put it in to my diary? If I don't train at the time I have planned will i feel that I have let myself down and then start a negative thought pattern in my head???

So I understand this all sounds very child like and silly but it is a hurdle and of concern for me.

Maybe because my whole days are diarised with all my work appointments that I don't want this to feel like that too, is this my issue?

This task scars me!

Any advise you might have?

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Excuses, Not today!

Since Friday I have had a tummy bug, throwing my body into overdrive and allowing my relationship with the toilet to become Zero to none! Yesterday I did not make it to exercise and this morning I knew if I was in for what I went through yesterday I would have to get up and go early.

10am so not to early I went on my run, already had visited my new BF once today. Decided to jog/walk to my parents, 4.86ks. Managed to just take one foot at a time and remind my self just take it slow just take it easy just one foot forward, you are doing better then sitting on the couch.

I did get there and I was aiming to get there in under 45min and happily I did it in 40.20min.

Tried to eat something short after and the moment I start eating my gut attack has begun and I run toilet.. 3 more times since then and I am now back home and have to leave to get some things done.

It is just one day that I overcome my excuses that love to run wild in my mind. Now to fight tomorrows battles.


Friday, August 10, 2012


So we all know that in Melbourne, the weather has been freezing and wet. I have recently moved and i don't even have a working kitchen let alone somewhere to put my gym equipment so I have been doing out door cardio. Well it all was just too much so I decided to go this morning to a local gym to do my cardio. What a disaster, half the cardio machines I went on weren't working and the ones that were working that I went on felt very glitch and I'm surprised I didn't injure myself. 
What a total disaster.

So now what will my plan of attack be?

How do you get yourself to train in this weather??? Raining and freezing!

Monday, August 6, 2012

12WBT- Down time

Ok, so the initial excitement of the 12WBT has already started to sizzle with the overwhelming emotions i feel. I have my first period since my miscarriage and I am sore and sad. When I feel down I don't want to exercise, I don't feel the energy to fight my mental battles of my subconscious tell me,'oh please do you really need to push your self and go on this walk/jog". While I tell that little voice be quiet just a few more steps, your doing so well!

I can already sense my self wanting to pick up an excuse, we have to bring our fridge to our house, finish the kitchen, put a shower head in, who has time to exercise today. But I am trying to fight that off... Telling me self. You can fit in an hour or 45min after work before you get started on the other stuff.. There will always be the other stuff trying to fill in my day.

Tell you the truth I think I need a good hard cry to release a lot of emotion being held inside and then move forward. Maybe a small holiday to sooth the soul.

I do remember roller coasters being fun as a kid.. why am I not excited and thrilled ?

Thursday, August 2, 2012


I am going to print this and stick it up... I love it! Power me up...

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

STARVINGGGGGGGG... Today and yesterday I have felt like I could eat the world. It's like I'm just so hungry! I'm starting to think it's not really my body telling me it's food deprived, it must be something going on in my mind. So I decided to pop some corn and try a tea as I unwind from the day and I'm happy with the choices I have made.

On a brighter side since I signed up I have gone for a walk 3 out of the 4 days. Considering before that I hadn't exercised in way to long it's a great place to start.

As I recently moved ( have spent 3 months crashing between my parents and my inlaws) we finally have out bed in out house. The feeling of sleeping in your own bed is priceless... Even when there is no shower or kitchen to use. I am hoping we will have finished the kitchen by the time this challenge officially starts. I know that I have NO hope at this with out the kitchen finished and our oven working and fridge in.
I have faith we can do this in time.

My mission is to get up early and train in the morning.. I have done this before and I loved it.. But it wasn't winter and there wasn't all these excuses in my head. I know it is going to be hard to get my body into going to bed early enough that I can get up early and my main fear is that we have friends and family over often and  I don't know how to control the situation that during the week we want an early night. I want like Michelle suggests to be in bed by 9.30 and lights off by 10! Then someone will want to come over 8pm on a week night and as terrible as it sounds, I in 12wbt mode am thinking 'How will I be able to get to bed at 9.30?".

Well I won't stress about it to much now. I should take it as it comes. For now my eyes are on tomorrow. May tomorrow be a successful day and only I can make it that way for me!

Monday, July 30, 2012

Round 3 12WBT 2012

Well here we go, lets start this 12WBT again... Like quitting to smoke, you might not get it right the first time, or even the second but it you continue to try again you will get there and that's why I'm doing this challenge again.
I have freed up some time in my life and made a few changes to help me be successful. I know I still have a lot of excuses that are just wanting to sabotage me along my way!
First is first.. So it was time to do my GET REAL Task.. hahaha laugh or cry???
Any way this is but I wrote.

Internal Excuses
To Tired, To unfit, to fat, to Lazy, unmotivated, do it later
just get it done then sleep, take your time one step at a time, you will lose weight if you do this, energy creates energy, forget motivation bad boyfriend, get the monkey off the back.
External Excuses ( still within my control)
To busy, can't afford it, to cold, to hot, unorganised, procastination, to wet.
say no and don't feel bad, don't need money, you will get warm, go indoors, set myself up for success, stop the thought process, you can get dry once your done.
External Excuses (completely out of my control)
Deal with the situation then clear the mind with my training.


GET THE MONKEY OFF THE BACK.. Repeat 100 times :)

Thanks for reading..